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 128-Up's Creative Side: Alive Within Cluttered Walls 
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Post The Poetic Capsule
A poem about poetry.

The Poetic Capsule

Taking the oceans of tears
Taking the embers of anger
Taking the gusts of silence
Taking the colours of ecstasy

It all comes together
To make a picture

What is the work of a poet?
To say what he sees.
To touch the reader's heart.

A rainbow capsule
With ever-changing insides
Reflecting the writer's world
No matter how bright or how dark
When ink meets paper
Landscapes are made

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Hopeless Lover of the Scorched
Geez... If I would animate, I would take it and create an animation about this.

Good job n.n

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Post Never Remind Me
How does he do it exactly? Sure, a malfunctioning heart is worse, but come on...

Never Remind Me

I know something's wrong with me
You don't need to tell me
Over and over

I hate who I am
A blackened heart
In a crusted shell

Staring at the red-tinted joints
Knowing I caused it
Even if I couldn't stop it

Never mention medicine
Never mention "getting better"
I'm sick, I've failed already

Stop trying to fix me
Stop trying to remind me
Stop trying to notice me

I never wanted this
Yet it is apparently my fault
Because I changed my priorities

I only care about my sanity
Is that so wrong?
Or don't you understand me?

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Post The Trial of the Romantic
So I'm apparently that angsty @#!$ around here. Fine then. Have more.

The Trial of the Romantic

"I'm sorry, but I need to do this."

Her words pierce my softened heart
They sound like euthanasia's blades

How long will she be gone?
She doesn't know
I have to just wait
She said she'll remember me
But may return in another's embrace

I look at my hands
My flaky, scabbing hands
She got affection from their grasp
Like no-one else could

Now they blacken from loneliness
While she recovers from the world

"I respect your decision"
Because I love you, and I have to
I wait forever for your voice to ring in my ears
Melting the glacier inside me

I lay awake last night
Scarlet tears falling
Thinking about what you meant
When you said "Goodbye for now"

Did you mean "Goodbye forever"?

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Post Snowflakes and Skinflakes
Bleugh. To unintentionally satisfy a trope: True Art is Angsty.

Snowflakes and Skinflakes

Looking at the laptop clock
Four fifteen in the morning
I haven't yet slept

Wiping cream across my neck
Watching my mattress cover in white
Strong cold winds through my window
I get hot overnight

Staying awake then heading down
No sleep, only hunger
Mother sees my neck and face
Both are red and dry

She forces me to use more cream
I hate being reminded that I'm sick
But I can't tell her why

Living a life of insecurity
Shyness and masquerades
All my friends are over water
I love them all but it's not enough
I wish for nothing but to hug them
To shake their hands and say
"Thanks for sticking around.
I'll get better, I swear."

The less I moisturise
The flakier I get
And perhaps...
...perhaps...
I'll be free from my misery
Rattling beneath and beyond my skin

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Post An Honest Question
Hello Gardeners. I don't have a poem for you, not that it matters, but a question.
Read this Skype excerpt (spoilered for convenience, and there are Katawa Shoujo spoilers within).

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[00:57:17] 128-Up!: I was on TV Tropes, one page lead to another, and I saw this...
[00:57:43] 128-Up!: "In Katawa Shoujo, it's all but stated that Rin Tezuka might end up doing this, since in her route she becomes more and more self-destructive in her despair to get enough inspiration to create art, whioch does not mix well with how she cannot exprress herself unless it's through art itself."

...It's me again.
[00:58:00] slaix223: Yeah, this is the reason why I didn't want you to play Rin's route.
[00:58:24] 128-Up!: Yeah... I just... agh.
[01:00:21] slaix223: I knew you would connect with her pretty dang well.
[01:00:34] 128-Up!: and so you saved me...?
[01:00:53] slaix223: Well, I still wanted you to play her route. Perhaps something good could come out of it.
[01:02:00] 128-Up!: ...Could you answer something for me?
[01:02:09] slaix223: Hm?
[01:02:19] 128-Up!: [01:00:42] Combat Fern: Yeah, that's the implication
[01:01:05] 128-Up!: Yeah... just wanted to get that out, in case someone decided to insist I did it.
[01:01:17] Combat Fern: You did what?
[01:01:28] Combat Fern: And why would that discourage you from playing her route?
[01:01:50] 128-Up!: ...I'll need someone else to explain it for me. Could you hold on a second?

I don't know how to answer this.
[01:03:25] slaix223: Probably because your mental state is almost identical to Rin's: On the verge of a breakdown, trying to use your poetry as a means of getting people to understand you, but ultimately failing at every attempt.
[01:04:41] slaix223: Although there's one main difference between you and Rin.
[01:04:48] 128-Up!: Hmm?
[01:05:00] slaix223: You don't mind me spoiling Rin's route, do you?
[01:05:07] 128-Up!: Not any more...
[01:05:38] slaix223: Well, for Rin, what's pushing her to her breaking point is the fact that she can't get anyone to understand her. Not so much for you, for the most part, although it certainly isn't helping.
[01:07:11] 128-Up!: Do people understand me, though? I like to pretend they do.
[01:10:07] slaix223: They might. I'm not sure. In some ways, poetry is good at hiding meaning, just because of how much you can cram into a poem.
[01:10:43] 128-Up!: I can't come out and just... say @#!$, though.
[01:11:26] slaix223: Why not?
[01:11:57] 128-Up!: Because... it's difficult. You know whenever I post poetry, there's some "plain text" over some pieces explaining it?
[01:12:23] slaix223: Yeah?
[01:12:36] 128-Up!: That @#!$ takes longer than the poem does.
[01:12:45] slaix223: Mmm, I see.
[01:15:19] 128-Up!: ...What do you mean?
[01:15:32] slaix223: Just trying to get your frame of mind.
[01:15:46] 128-Up!: Good luck.


Tell me. How incomprehensible am I? When @#!$ comes up in my life (such as Cayla practically breaking up with me), I find it harder to tell people straight than write about it. So...

Also, even if I post this on Skype alerting people, please post here. I want to look back at these posts.

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Trapped Behind the Papers
*googles incomprehensible*
hmm, I guess a bit

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Trapped Behind the Papers
So, you're connected with her... But I'm feeling like you have in mind leave your artistic side just because you want avoid an end like her.

I'm right with this or not, I hope and I don't ruin it... I love your poems, sadly mostly of them are sad because you're in a state that your spirit wants happiness (and I can say you are, only is covered with a blanket as your eyes can't see it), but... Who didn't use the art and talents to drop our feelings on it?

I remember I wrote a fanfiction (incomplete, yet) with the objective to release my heart of my pain and sadness... And the readers told me it, that fanfiction is sad and push you to cry... But that is the function of te art: Release your feelings.

I know you want an answer after post a poem your, but sometimes is hard to say something when you know it express (personal feelings)... In my case, I'm worried, but I think I'm the worst person to help because I don't have a normal life: No married, not boyfriend, men don't look at me... *shrug*... What tips would I give you?

But something I'm sure... We can't have an end as a character that coincide with us, less if his/her end is chaotic... We have the power to change our destiny, and we're the one who can decide one of two options: 1. Or you try to live happy, with the Hope to get a better day (because everybody has troubles and no one has a perfect life) and enjoy the stuffs that are with you (family, friends, life, a blue sky, birds' song, etc... 2. Or live being a miserable...

Your smart, with a great talent (and I told you it, I'm jelaous because I can't write like you)... Use it... But don't fall in the darkness... We're here to bright your life because you're not alone... Be happy, enjoy your life, because we have one only and you can't have any reason to dirt it with sadness and troubles... I know you can try, just trust in yourself as I do with you...

The life is wisdom and has knowledges, many of time play with us and hurt us... But, trust me, soon or later, it will put the card in your favor... And I feel it will soon... You're so young, you're still beggining to live... Be a powerful warrior... and smile :3

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Post A Hopeless Wish
You know what? I sometimes feel like my work ruins the forum. I'm surprised no-one's made a complaint asking for the thread to be closed down yet.

Anyway, time for a quick poem because I hate staring at the posting space for literal hours, concocting a method to portray my thoughts.


A Hopeless Wish

Looking in the mirror
Seeing the cracks
Not on the glass
But on my heart
And on my skin

Luck falls on the shards
Until nearly a decade passes
I'll be waiting
Crusting away

With nothing left
But unbridled panic
I shall end it

Fall from my arms
Create a blanket

Then I shall slip

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Post A Bloodstained Pathway
Blah blah blah depression tying in with something I love blah blah blah

A Bloodstained Pathway

Remember all those times
I showed you my twisted mind
Was capable of?

I turned around
And saw the bodies
Scattered on my way
All of them are me
Trying to prove
That the way is harmless

I put everything there
Hand-crafted every trap
I didn't think it would hurt this much

I relish in the cries of others
Yet I place my mark on everything

It makes me happy
To know what I can do
It makes me sad
To know it makes you scared

I'm pushing the boundaries
Of both design
And patience

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Trapped Behind the Papers
Trust me, bro. I know more than anyone I personally come into contact with what it feels like to be misunderstood and incomprehensible. I mean, when you have an entire school minus 2 people who hate your guts for what you are, without the knowledge behind WHY you are what you are, it kinda sux. And believe me when I say that I'd rather be misunderstood than to be readable like a book. It would make life feel almost boring to be completely understood, because when your incomprehensible, you draw in others like you. Its just a fact of life. Us weirdos attract other weirdos who end up being our friends. And you know what? I'm okay with that because who cares who understands me? As long as I can understand myself and my family can do the same. That's all I need. My best friend is myself.

...But your a close second. ^_^

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Post Looking Back, Looking Ahead
As I type this, only twenty minutes of 2012 remain.

So many things happened, but for the life of me, I can only remember the negative ones.

The trivia ending, the increasing severity of my skin, the breaking of my heart...

As January 1st approaches, I have but one message to the forum.

I'm sorry.

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Trapped Behind the Papers
Well, I'll trust in 2013 the life will smiles you *big hug*... Happy New Year in your country. :3

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Post Leaking from the Eyes
Holding things in is hard... letting them go is even harder...

Leaking from the Eyes

Sometimes I have nightmares
They mirror problems when awake

A helpless silence
A wish for something perfect
But it never happens
Thrashing against the walls

Turning away when asked
Wanting something
Never knowing if he had it
Or ever shall have it

Pulling at an unnatural second skin
Waiting for the tears to come
Let them fall already

Let them fall so I can dream again

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Post The Valentine's Thought Process
It's a bit early, I know, but romance is a particular passion of mine. I'd like to do it right just once...

The Valentine's Thought Process

Walking out of the cold iron building
After arguing with the student council
Damage has been dealt to many
And my caged heart remains thrashing

My stride is no longer confident
Standing tall is impossible
The passing of time makes it torturous
As I wait for three stars above me

Her red velvet clothes linger
As our innocence starts to fade
Friendship turns to something more
While I hide my painful history

She was letting my heart speak tonight
She wanted to put school days behind us
No high tension, nothing to worry about
Just each other to comfort ourselves

The jitter of the wind chimes outside
They make music as daylight fades
We no longer wanted to be out of the loop
Between us, only parity and clarity

The afternoon moves into the sunset
And the shadow of the truth is cast
Her smile puts me at ease with the world
The moment of decision draws closer

"Yes, you are my everyday fantasy. I love you."

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Post The Friendship Flowchart
It's getting harder to express my thoughts, even poetically. It's all a jumble, where the slightest thing will set me off...

The Friendship Flowchart

Someone new is around?
They seem kind... let's see how I do.
Follow the path and think on my feet.
Checking the rules, however complex they are.

Do people think I'm psychic?
I have to be to succeed.
Patterns don't work in practice.

I'm going around in circles, awaiting a tell.
...How long will I be waiting?

How long before people are predictable...?

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Holding His Heart Together
I love that. Friendship Flowchart...So true....so true....
I think it really defines how everyone's different.

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Post The Tonality Temptress' Trial
Pretty blatant, even by my standards...

The Tonality Temptress' Trial

Hey, memory? You there?
Listen, move your hands. Click that.
Yes, that one. The song.

Remember her voice?
Oh, you do! Fantastic.
Remember her name?
You do!? Excellent!

Here, I'll help you remember her.
Her name will show up everywhere!
Everything will remind you of her!
Go on, tell her how much you miss her...

Her name means bad memories, does it?
Her name makes you cry, does it?
Her picture makes you depressed, does it?
Her picture makes you lonely, does it?

I am love, I am lust, and I rule over you.
Give in, and I will be happy!

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Post The Eternal Pause
I don't like going on and on about this stuff, believe me, but at least it's better than self-harm for letting things flow out of me. I should know.

The Eternal Pause

I see her speak often.
I hear her voice in my head.
Every word on my screen is beautiful.

I go through my pictures of her
And I feel regret.

What were we after together?
Were our hearts connected or just our bodies?

I don't care. I still love her.
Knowing she's silencing me...
Knowing I have to step back and wait...
But for how long?

I don't want to forget her, but she's forgotten me.
Crushed under the final page
of this chapter of her life.
Perhaps things would be better if I saw that paragraph
and gave myself a papercut
then bled to death.

If I know it makes her happy again...

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Post A Forced Perspective
Woo, Katawa Shoujo poetry. This one's an... alternate take on one of my favourite characters.

A Forced Perspective

Standing at the side of silence
Looking on to her navy hair
Her figure is beautiful
And everyone's aware of it
Yet I am ignored

No-one knows my name
I am but "The Translator"
She who places words into the air
After drawing them from dainty hands

Yesterday, my friend was outraged
She saw the blonde-haired girl
I never understood what was wrong
But I sided with her anyway
Not because I had no choice
If Shizune would remain my friend
I had to agree with her every move

Just once
I want to break away
Tell her what I really think

So what if she's cleverer than I?
Do I not have emotion?
She doesn't think so
If she broke my heart so long ago

What does she care
As long as she's in charge?

Hakamichi, I've had enough

I want to leave you alone

Let me talk to everyone else

So you can learn what it is like
To suffer in silence

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Post Prioritisation
It's in my nature to make people happy...

Prioritisation

Shovel in my hand
Preparing to go right down
Below the surface

I stop and wonder
Am I in the state for this?
What if I stop short?

I feel horrendous
Suggesting an action then
Not following through

Maybe I want to just
Tilt my head back and relax
But I can't do that

This was my own plan
So until I create it
I can't leave the soil

I haven't the heart
To show weakness and speak up
About what is wrong now

Too bad, I'm aware
I've started so I'll finish
Whenever that is...

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Post Re: 128-Up's Creative Side: Standing at a Mental Splitpath
*claps* Brilliant! That's the longest set of haikus I've ever seen! I really liked haikus regardless, but this is fantastic!

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Post The Idle Lovers' Dream
You know... I said this earlier tonight to Neo:
[03:39:54] 128-Up!: Goddamn, listening to either opening theme or the first credits theme [of Nichijou] for a bit is... like... insta-happy.

Not even they are able to cure me of the changes I undergo when my parents mention my future...

Also, I am aware of two things:
1) People might say something if my "poetry" is more than thinly veiled whining
2) I constantly sound like a sob story

That's not changing a thing, got that?


The Idle Lovers' Dream

Waking up and watching the snowfall
Straight from my head and onto the keys
I blow them away and stare at their falling
Soon to be swept everywhere haphazardly

Everything reminds me how I am impure
Unable to work, unable to care, unable to express
I'm but a living shell, waiting to crack

For once in my life, can't I be the Sun?
And let everything revolve around me?
Apparently, I'm the problem. I always have been.

It's just unfair, why should I care?

...

in fact i wont
if i can only do the bare minimum
then the bare minimum is what youll get

just let me fly over to who i found
maybe by then shell lose who she already has

shes expressed true affection for me before
but no this has to be isosceles

i could cry each night
or maybe slice my skin
but what is the point
if im doomed to failure

stop asking about my future
why should i think about
what i clearly dont have
...or want

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Post Firmly Planted Thoughts
As inspired by Hanako.

Firmly Planted Thoughts

Flowers surrounded by purple petals
Closed and sealed perpetually
No human's seen the core before
Is it natural for it to act this way?

Perhaps the seed was in ruptured earth
Perhaps it felt its family perish
Perhaps fear struck the delicate centre

What drives the passers-by to look?
Concern or curiosity?

Maybe the petals slowly separate
To let in the pure yellow sun
Whether it wants to or not

If flowers could think
This one would never open up
If flowers could speak
Its words would be hesitant and slow
If flowers could move
We all know the direction it would go

People try tearing the petals away
To satisfy their exploratory nature
They just had to see what was inside
It's a good thing flora cannot weep
It's a great thing flora cannot injure
It's a wonderful thing flora cannot pull out its roots

Sometimes the right person comes across
She gently touches the petals
Not pulling away but simply touching

This rare occurrence has a scientific name
"Revelabunt Purpura"
Many hear that name and cringe
But listen to its common name
"The Opening of the Violet"

Who knows which plants open up to which people
All I know is a simple thing

Someone wants to open someone else's flower
But others exist solely to pull them apart

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Post Running Through the Mushroom's Head
This isn't a poem. Instead, it is something I want to get off my chest. There's nowhere else to put it and, despite the prospect that I'll be instead causing a scene, I want people to see this.

This is something I wrote for my therapist to read.

I'll spoiler it. If you don't want to read it, exit the thread now. If you do... I'm so sorry...

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Nothing I have written down has been fabricated/forced:

Right now, and for the rest of my life, I want one "simple" thing: To do things at my own pace.

I want to do only what I want to do.
No more pressure, no more stress.

If I do work, I want it to be self-employment in something I enjoy. Game design or something.
Perhaps I'll find my dream partner in the future. She exists but she is always taken.

For all I care, I'd go on disability allowance.
It'd be a relief. I wouldn't need to do what I didn't wish to.
When I was eleven, I broke my ankle. The feeling of being cared for... I was happy.
I know it's counter-intuitive, but once I was in that wheelchair, I felt fine.
The only part I hated was needing to constantly go to hospital for physiotherapy after I was "healed".
I hate hospitals.

I don't know if my parents know how prone I am to thinking about suicide.
I'm easy to set off, because I never want to make mistakes.
I despise being imperfect.

I'd rather be sane and happy than successful.
If I need to sacrifice the latter for the former two, so be it.

Is wanting a life without problems so implausible?
I can't function properly, and I honestly don't want to.

Maybe one of the best things in my life has corrupted me, who knows?
All I know is that I know exactly what I want.

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Post Repurposed Shards
As inspired by a Skype group.
Unrelated, but I probably should number these pieces...


Repurposed Shards

Fifteen glass orbs
Delicately placed upon pedestals
The world could see them
And they were beautiful

Without warning
They soon tumbled
One by one
Each smashed against the ground
As a violet creature
Tore away the podiums
Leaving them distraught
And broken

Most of each was soon destroyed
Without proper care or attention
Some didn't think much of them
For they were mere ornaments
Who cares?

Someone found a piece of us
Hidden away in corners and crevices
The parts no-one noticed
And took us away

We were deconstructed
Melted down into liquid particles
Before coming together
And becoming one glorious object

Placed back upon the pedestal
The people saw the "ornament"
It was no longer just an object to them
It was proof

No matter how many times we are destroyed
So long as someone else survives with us
We will never be truly shattered
We can be repurposed
We can be reunited
We can be loved

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Post Lock Me Away Forever
I'm aware inspiration comes from anywhere. This one comes from having my mum watch a soap opera within earshot.

Lock Me Away Forever

I hear every day of problems with the world
Hate crimes, racism, sexism... even separation through appearance
Being in an awkward situation, I cannot take it
Within a short while, things became unbearable
A routine occurred where every three hours or so
Place is everything here, everything's a power struggle
Of the cruelest minds and the innocent victims
Hatred - the corrupt diamond - clutched in blood-stained fingers

Just take the shadows away from my vision
Close the curtains and watch me curl up
My brain is loaded with current affairs and antimatter
Eyes turning crimson and bloodshot from the terror
For the love of the weakened, I want no more
Eternity passing slower and slower

Then my feet shift closer to the cliff face
Maybe they'll take me over the edge soon
I'll be converted to misanthropy before long
Be grateful my spells aren't explosive, just self-inflicting
Happy to be around? Maybe... maybe not...

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Post Preoccupation
Having to continuously distract yourself is both a blessing and a curse...

Preoccupation

Anything to keep my hands away
Thoughts into overtime
Distractions required

A haphazard blend of words and questions
Some I want to ask but can't
Some I have asked but shouldn't
There's no guideline for me to stick to

I don't know how to do anything
Frozen in place while actions just happen
Even writing this is a little regretful

I keep thinking about one thing
That I want to ask everyone
In fear the answers keep changing
But whenever the thought arises
I do what I can to silence myself

I really need to stop

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Post Excusing the Excuses
Anyone who's seen my Skype status message has seen that I want people to read through the Depression Comix. As a depression sufferer who feels no-one actually gets how I think, I recommend people look at it.

I'd have told more people, but...


Excusing the Excuses

We live in a world when problems are the new Moon
As they eclipse us all from the light
Everyone wants an issue solved
It could be worldwide, it could be personal
I'm a little different

I don't expect something to be done
But I expect to be heard and understood
When no-one seems to take time to consider my world
It breaks what little spirit thrives within

How can I tell someone about it
when everyone thinks it's my fault?
When everyone thinks it's something I can just change?

"Depression" and "sadness" are as synonymous
as "crimson" and "turquoise"
The latter are both colours, but not the same.
The former... figure it out yourself.

I've had it with freezing up
and lying through my teeth
when asked how I am feeling

I don't want to be a burden to anyone
but if I tell no-one, no-one gets it

Tread across the coals in my head for a moment.
You may be saddened by considering it
but why live thinking everything is great
when someone you know is being ravaged away by the unknown?

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